Trying to manage a blog while being a SAHM
It’s been a while since I’ve posted and it’s been frustrating to find the time to write but the thoughts don’t stop, so it feels like I have to play catch-up. This post will include run-on sentences and all the thoughts that are going on in my head at the moment; the true “Rotem’s Ruminations.”
A little bit about my life these days:
I enjoy being home with Itamar, he’s learning new things every day and amazes me with his skills. He’s a great climber, climbing onto the couch like he’s conquered it a thousand times. He is learning how to open and close containers and even improvises lids for containers that don’t have one available. He is an amazing eater, eating anything animal-based, as well as woodchips and leaves when he finds the opportunity. [Just writing these few sentences has eased the stress I felt this evening about managing my website.] When I reach for a snack (a slice of bacon or a pork rind), he reaches his hand out as if to say “me too!”. When I make seltzer with our SodaStream, Itamar recognizes the bubbling and fizzling and crawls from wherever he is to get a sip. My mom’s daypack sits permanently on the floor because Itamar drinks from her water bladder. Today my mom taught him “bye” while he walked away with the laundry basket [his walker] and he looked down at his hand to try to open and close it, and he succeeded. He’s such an expressive little boy and he definitely fills up my days.
About 6 months in, I started taking up Friday night EMS duty for the local fire department, which meant being on call but at home. In July I started working at the fire department during the day as well, a 6 hour shift every Friday. Really light per diem work for a mom. In the beginning I was blogging once a week, Fridays were a great way to write up a post. However, there are some tasks that have to be done around the station, like organizing and cleaning out junk – all the things I love to do. So, I’ve been feeling a bit more useful, but I’ve been lagging in my personal work.
There’s so much more I would like to write right now, but it’s getting close to 10pm. This journal entry has really lifted my spirits, even if it doesn’t feel like I’m saying much or accomplished anything. Nevertheless, the practice of sitting down and writing is a good habit to build, and I’d like to share it here with my readers because I hope something here resonates with anyone who feels like life builds up piles and piles of responsibilities around you. Someone who, like me, feels that they’re always playing catch-up and don’t have time to pursue their real interests and dreams. I haven’t yet, either. But I hope to one day. Have a good night.
Here are some cute photos:
Rotem Weisman, LMT, Doula 